Awakening from Delusions of Love

some questions for the journey

Awakening out of our delusions is a confounding experience.

We may find ourselves feeling confused, drained, lost, deflated, and grieving.

Perhaps vacillating between feeling numb and absolute shock.

We agreed to incarnate for this very experience: our remembering.

I recently came out of some delusions I was attached to regarding my conceptualization of love.

Sometimes, the way we imagine love becomes the vehicle that drives our disconnection from its truth.

Enraptured by fantasy, I clung to a love built on the chaos of intense passion—what I now understand to be fear masquerading as intimacy.

What I’ve learned in spiritual study is that in order to wake from the dream, sometimes something perceptually “drastic” has to occur.

Initiation into awakening is sometimes a stark experience.

Shamelessly, I’ll admit to you that I’d love my spiritual journey to feel soft, but then I would be bypassing my humanity—no can do.

When life feels shaky, I’ve learned that the most loving thing I can do for myself is loosen my grip and flow.

I’ve learned to trust that the shake-up serves a purpose: it clears energy, realigns values, redirects vision, and guides toward deeper truth.

What does it look like to loosen my grip?

I consider:

What was it that I was once attached to?

What am I being called to consider rearranging in my life?

What have I recently been prioritizing that isn’t serving my highest good?

What did I used to believe about x, y, z? What do I feel about it now?

What did I imagine for myself in the past? What do I truly want for my future?

What is contributing to or creating chaos in my life?

What contributes to or enhances my peace?

What can I learn from listening to my body every day?

Is my behavior or my thoughts distancing me from the love within me?

I’ve learned that these are questions that require revisiting, each time offering new clarity.

Here’s to the upward spiral of our cyclical paths,

xo

Rachel